The road to the top of the mountain usually feels steeper right before you are about to get there. No matter how much training you have, how much knowledge you have, how much determination you have… the last few steps always feel like they require all your effort, but then you get to the top, and you can breathe again! This week has been a little bit of both emotions, so let me tell you all about it. Silver lining? Week three is done, and only one more to go!
At times I have started to crave certain carbs, and definitely my usual vegetable proteins. I do feel satisfied after my meals and snacks, but I think it has been anxiety that has been the culprit of my wanting to eat more and not drinking enough water. Being Mom to a wonderful hyperactive toddler going through terrible two’s, nonetheless, is no easy task. Some days I am dealing with tantrums and meltdowns most of the day, and the soft and tender moments with my child are some rare few minutes during the day, or the last cuddle to sleep at night. There is no easy child, and I love mine to pieces, but sometimes he triggers my anxiety and drains all I got at the end of the day. I guess I say all this, because adding a cleanse that requires a lot of food prep and time in the kitchen, has definitely required a lot of discipline, effort and patience on my end… and sometimes also breathing through anxiety when I am trying to get the celery juice made and my toddler is yelling for the fourth time that morning. So yes, I have been pretty exhausted and anxious, not drinking enough water still and sleeping way less than I any human should. All this being said, I am proud of myself for having such a strong will power and not breaking the cleanse at all. I still don’t have a solution for the different menus, but I have consolidated the non-cleanse menus for the most part, so I’m only prepping two different meals instead of three. The spinach soup continues to surprise me as I am enjoying it more, the salads I have been rotating as I crave one fruit or the other, and the juicing, smoothies and juices keep holding me well in between meals. I am kind of getting used to it though, and I already decided I do not want to go back to breads, flours, and sugars… and definitely no more occasional dairy, it’s just not worth it. I have however had a couple of occasions when I could not stomach a juice or a meal, and then realize they both had raw garlic, lemon and ginger together. I usually cannot stomach that in a regular basis, and I do suffer from gastritis, but the heartburn has been gone for the last few weeks until I had those. Taking them out of the recipes fixed the issue and I could eat the meal just fine. The celery juice is getting way easier to drink this week, and I am even finding it creamier! Oh yeah, and my son keeps drinking it as well. As far as symptoms go, the brain fog is better this week, even with all the exhaustion. Inflammation has gone down quite a bit, to the point that my clothes are starting to be loose. I’ve had a bad knee for months now, I cannot bend it all the way and it’s bothersome to get dressed, do yoga or exercise, and it just plain out hurts. Well, by the end of week three, the pain is gone, and the inflammation is down a good 85%, which is amazing. My headaches are down to almost gone, only sometimes I’ll get the tension headaches, but they are not constant, in fact, I forget they are there at all. Rashes are a little better, I would say a 15% better overall, but it is hard to get those dark circles any better when you don’t sleep enough. Again, I didn’t do any exercise this week, but I did do some gardening and outdoor play with my son, which is pretty demanding physically for me, so I will make it count as exercise. No meditation either, and to my defense, this week was very challenging emotionally, so I used the time to collect myself and gather the different emotions that I went through because of external factors. Aside from the anxiety, still making such an effort to stay on track with this, get the produce several times a week, plus family life, has come with ups and downs. At times I’ve been feeling like I can’t handle more stuff, but there have been days when I have felt a little bit more like the old me, and had more energy, and that has been incentive enough not to give up. At times, I have felt completely at peace with the new diet and even though I get bored sometimes, I know it is temporary and my mind is not resisting it anymore. That shift changed everything. I also had a situation this week that had me praying to God and all the angels this week for help, and I feel like something snapped inside of me… I just let go of my attachment to everything. I don’t know if Mercury in retrograde is affecting me, or Mercury or the upcoming moon eclipse, or the humidity, or the heavy metals leaving my body, but by the next day I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders and began a new focus. I don’t think I could have done this with the amounts of brain fog I have been experiencing prior to the cleanse, so thank you Medical Medium! So overall the food prep has been intense, but I am finding good systems for that, I am working better with the food, and my symptoms are getting less loud. All wonderful blessings when you live with autoimmune diseases, and your life requires you to perform at a 150%. For the next and final week, I want to resume an exercise routine, add some yoga, and hopefully meditation. I want to feel more flexible within the program, and more relaxed with it. I am curious as to what will happen with the symptoms, since I really hope the curve continues to go towards positive. Alrighty then, I hope this was informative and useful to you. Whether you are thinking about doing a cleanse, in the middle of one, or almost done, whether you are cleansing your body, your mind, or your spirit, trying to be better with a habit like too much social media or ice cream, or trying to let go of a situation or person that is not positive for you, please know you are not alone. It is not easy to manifest change within the self, because it requires awareness, action, discipline and willpower. We will always gravitate towards the known, but we know that is not always what is best, so why not give life a chance to surprise you and make you smile? Yeah… I say let it! Thank you so much for coming back this week, hopefully you can take away something from my report, and I hope you come back again. As always, you can follow my IG and YouTube for more fun postings, and feel free to send me messages or comments wherever you want. Have a wonderful day! Love, Light, and Music… Yeshiva Lex ~
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